Well, with the ups and downs that we've gone through in the past week, it's hard to find your footing and set reasonable expectations for how we're doing, how our pregnancy is going, and what to expect next. 'Dr. Google', as we refer to the idea of searching for any and all information you can find, has been both a blessing and a curse.
It was a blessing because when R started bleeding this past weekend, I was able to find other folks online who essentially said 'yep, I bled a lot, but I have a beautiful baby now - hang in there!', which gave me hope that an ongoing and successful pregnancy was still at least possible, even if it might not be probable.
Of course, it can be a total curse because every time you search for symptoms, you find the tragic stories of folks who had very similar sounding symptoms who lost their baby.
Since the internet is what it is, it can be hard to figure out which outcome is more likely, and so I decided to make today a Dr. Google free day. R is bleeding again, heavily, and I know from past research that may be a bad sign, or it may mean nothing at all. Either way, there's not much we can do about it. We have an O/B appointment this morning, so we hope to get more information from a medical professional rather than random folks on the internet... but even that may not reassure us much.
This is going to be a long journey, it appears. All we can do is keep moving forward one step at a time and make the best decisions for us that we can.